Craig Bellamy has revealed he is going through the "worst time in his life" after the death of his close friend and former Wales manager Gary Speed last year.
Speed was found hanged at his home last November at the age of 42 and Bellamy, who played alongside the midfielder for Newcastle United and Wales, admits it has "affected everything", including his marriage.
The former Liverpool and Manchester City striker, 33, told the Sunday Mirror he has moved out of the marital home he shared with wife Claire and their three children.
He said: "Losing my best mate has affected everything. I can't believe how hard it is.
"He was the best mate I've ever had. It's sad but unfortunately it got to my marriage. I'm here and she's there.
"I don't know if that's it for us. All I know is that my best mate has gone. I'm struggling. I can't lie."
Bellamy said of his family situation: "I can't tell you how hard it is. It's the worst time in my life ever."
Bellamy, who was part of the
Cardiff recently rejected reports he was considering retirement.